soaking up freedom

hopingforthesun:

I’m actually going to miss writing research papers….

I’m going to do everything within my will to make this the best paper I’ve ever written. 

:)

me too. :)

it’s like every time i encounter you my soul expands so that what i’ve had as of now is not enough, i have to have more of you.

listening to UPB while studying-

dangerously distracting, but I welcome Holy Spirit distractions.

#likeawaterfall

i have tried

for days and years

to figure out Who you want me to be

and be it.

the problem is, there are multiple you’s

and multiple Who’s

and I CAN’T BE THEM ALL.

pick one? the best one? 

how can i make me into someone that every you will be happy with?

.

Jesus, renew my mind in this. I want to be Yours, who you want me to be. Let me only conform to YOU. be the lamp to my feet and the light to my path.

All this is flashy rhetoric about loving you

I never had a selfless thought since I was born.
I am mercenary and self-seeking through and through: I want God, you, all friends, merely to serve my turn.

Peace, reassurance, pleasure are the goals I seek,
I cannot crawl one inch outside my proper skin:
I talk of love—as scholar’s parrot may talk Greek— But, self-imprisoned, always end where I begin.

Only that now you have taught me (but how late) my lack. I see the chasm. And everything you are was making
My heart into a bridge by which I might get back
From exile, and grow man. And now the bridge is breaking.

For this I bless you as the ruin falls. The pains

You give me are more precious than all other gains.